White Sheep on a Blue Hill

"I do not want life to imitate art. I want life to be art." - deliverance of ideas

3:35 AM

I had not been resting well for days. I'm exhausted. I know not just me alone is exhausted. But due to what had happened last night, i had broke down once, twice, again and again. And due to your irresponsibility, I gave up on you and myself as well. I'm always a strong girl. Always. I never failed handling any situations. Never. Because of you, putting all your faults and troubles/problems on me, leaving me alone in the dark, struggling crazily, i lost my courage to be brave and face or handle the situation. I almost had depression. But, I preserver.

Girls, whoever has shown me their concern, be there for me, be my listening ear, I thank you all. Sophia's concern and her words she said has make me stay strong. "Should think of what to do next rather than I keep thinking back and it'll only hurts even more."
Eileen's and bessy's listening ear has make me never felt alone. Thank you all.

I need to play and give myself laughters and joy after all my work is done. Not just me alone. We all deserve something good.


Now I like to eat mui fan ever since Sophia introduce it to me. And I just had it for dinner. I keep sneezing non-stop from home to school. It wasn't raining today; fucking hot weather. Sick, yes, already sick.

Last Thursday, booked a room at Haji Lane to rush out our work together with Sophia till morning 5am, non-stop and from there, we just fall asleep with empty stomach. Shivering and sharing with just one thin blanket. Woke up at 1130am and quickly rush to school. Cab home and continue my work without resting. It's all worth it because some of my collage turns out quite good. I'll post it up soon.

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