White Sheep on a Blue Hill

"I do not want life to imitate art. I want life to be art." - deliverance of ideas

1:09 AM yesterday meeting is kinda craps. forget about the meeting, i'll just end it here. again, same thing, dinner together with verse and made our way to icon, alice's shop. yesterday was my first time that i stayed there till they close shop. and all of us went up to the roof top talking rubbish. great night ends with funny jokes and laughters.

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it's okay that you don't get what i mean or maybe i didn't say it in details. you're such a great one to me. i can't believe you threatened me to stab yourself just because of a guy. yes, finally i let it all out that i couldn't accept him and call him daddy. i won't be happy if both of ya'll were to get marry. am okay if you want to have boyfriends or how many millions of guys you date with. finally i see the true colors and i never never thought or imagine the way you threaten me last midnight. you were so childish that i could really hate you or maybe i should put it this way. you made me to hate you. my feelings for you all gone. just because of your foolish thinking and actions.

i had been trying to change my attitude and character and am not ashame to say that am so much better than the old me. i had been very happy and why must you mess things all over again and again?

let me tell you these:

i had never never like uncle frankie. yes, he bought me to his company to work and let me have a good pay. am greatful to him BUT in work, his my supervisor and we only talk about work stuffs. no jokes or laughters.

i'll give in to you. i won't say another words if you marry to him or date with him. i won't call him or other people "daddy" this is the fact. he didn't have sex with you and give birth to me.

if you were to continue to threaten me, i will seek help from professional counseling. i believe you will know what's the consequences.